Carrying Jadeyn

by Brittany
(Philomath, OR, US)

On June 14, 2010, I found out that I was pregnant. I had gone to the local clinic to get more birth control (I was taking the pill at the time) but just in case I decided it would be a good idea to take a pregnancy test. The lady came back with the results. I was pregnant. All of a sudden, I became blank. It was like I just hit a brick wall. I should have expected it because any time a person has sex, they are risking getting pregnant, I just never thought it would happen to me at such a young age.

My boyfriend and I at the time fought constantly. He started partying more and smoking weed and I didn't want to be a part of it. I told him I was pregnant and he became extremely distant even though he had mentioned previously that he wanted to start a family.

After giving him many chances, I finally stood up and broke off things with him. I spent the next 9 months carrying our child without him. The first four months were the most rough. Fighting constantly with my ex and having all day, every day morning sickness. I was nauseous all the time and was tired nonstop.

I saw little Jadeyn for the first time on July 27th. It brought tears to my eyes. Not only was I carrying this precious being, but I also felt guilty. I didn't want him growing up not knowing who his dad was but sometimes it seems like it's for the best. I had my second ultrasound on September 27th and I found out it was a boy. I was overwhelmed with joy. The hard part was picking out a name but I soon settled with Jadeyn Anthony, Anthony being after my dad.

I felt Jadeyn move for the first time in October. It was the strangest feeling but the most precious. From then on I would lay with my belly exposed waiting for him to move again. I was due February 5th but I am still waiting on him to come. Hopefully the labor will go smoothly. But no matter what, I know the pain will definitely be worth it.